Imageillusions  plural of il·lu·sion (Noun)


  1. A false idea or belief: “he had no illusions about her”.

  2. A deceptive appearance or impression: “the illusion of togetherness”.

Hello Folks,

Take note of the definition listed above.  I have been in an avalanche of attacks from the enemy.  I found myself complaining and panicking but then a silence came and I heard the Spirit of the Living God speak… SHHHSH!! 

I have to be honest I was still fearful. I was scared because it would seem like after everything was said about funds began to dry up.  My church family would call or text and say how are you.  I wanted to say-starving, afraid, penniless, and the like. I didn’t though. Oh, I know what you are thinking..I am full of pride.  Really, I am not.  I was ashamed after the breakup..the things that he said about me.  They looked like they were true so I just found myself being pressed into a fetal position.

Those that are close to me begin to speak life to me.  I found myself shaking but stepping out of the shadows of shame.  I decided that the life I live will out live every I began to fast and decree the word of the LORD.. 

Now He has assured me it was just an ILLUSION. Remember the definition of illusion-

A deceptive appearance or impression

-Deceptive appearance or impression- who deceives? That’s right the enemy-the great deceiver.. Well, just as God toldme things are getting better. He(that guy) has stopped talking or posting comments about my blogs. Monies are coming in slowly and my mother’s health is improving.

First let me tell you that my younger sister did not call me but my daughter.. this caused pain and anger. But I knew that mom’s life was more important that how I felt. so I pressed in to find the strength put my own feelings out of the way.

Mom was on life support.. I sought God for the extension of time. I thanked God for giving her more years like he did King Hezekiah..This was prayed Sunday morning. Monday afternoon she began breathing on her own. She is still on oxygen but I truly believe God answered my prayer. Thank you JESUS!!! Oh yeah, I didn’t tell you.

My younger sister who would not talk to me and gave everyone the impression that I did not love my mother, started talking to me.  I let my guard down and the next day she called the security to have me thrown out of my mother’s room.

My aunt came to be the referee but I just left and struggled with visiting her that evening. I prayed and mustered the courage to visit the next day. My sister was not there. God will do what he said he will do.. which have his vengeance on those who touch his anointed or do his prophets harm. So I wait on him for justice..

The point to be made is it is an ILLUSION.. IT WAS DONE TO DECEIVE!!







Hey sports lovers,

Kobe and his mom are in a huge disagreement.  I guess a disagreement is an understatement.  I read the below story and wondered why a mom would want to sell or auction off her son’s things. Please understand it is not my intention to judge her but just attempting to make sense of it all.. 

My son the ‘Black Mumba” …wow I would be so proud and would never sale any of things but again I am a Laker Lover.. I have loved the Lakers since I was 13 years old.  Now I will not tell you folks how many years that has been.  Smile, but it has been a lot of years. 

Read the story and let me know what you think.. Image

The story is provided by’s Darren Rovell..

CAMDEN, N.J. — Kobe Bryant is in a court battle to try to keep his mother from auctioning off mementos from his high school days in Pennsylvania and his early years with the Los Angeles Lakers.

A New Jersey auction house filed a lawsuit in U.S. District Court in Camden on Thursday for the right to sell the stuff after the NBA star’s lawyers wrote the firm telling it to cancel a planned June auction.




The disagreement is a high-value, high-profile version of a question many families face: Can Mom get rid of the stuff a grown child left at home?

Pamela Bryant intends to sell: the NBA star’s jerseys, practice gear and sweatsuits from Lower Merion High School; varsity letters; a trophy for being the outstanding player at the 1995 Adidas ABCD basketball camp; and a signed basketball from the 2000 NBA championship game.

And then there are rings, for the 1996 Pennsylvania high school championship, a pair that the Lakers made for Bryant’s parents for the 2000 NBA championship and one from the 1998 NBA All-Star Game.

According to court filings, Pamela Bryant struck a deal in January with Goldin Auctions in Berlin, N.J., which earlier this year sold a rare Honus Wagner baseball card for a record $2.1 million.

She got $450,000 up front, which she intended to use for a new home in Nevada.

A source told ESPN that Kobe Bryant offered to pay his mother up $250,000 toward a home she wanted.

 She refused, saying she wanted $450,000. When Kobe Bryant turned her down, the source said that unbeknownst to Kobe Bryant she struck a deal to get the $450,000 advanced through the auction company.

The source said Kobe Bryant was unaware that his memorabilia was being auctioned until hours before the auction company released the news of the sale.

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Sources close to Kobe Bryant confirmed to that before learning about the auction through news reports, the Lakers star has given his parents “millions of dollars in financial assistance” throughout his 17-year career.

Bryant’s parents decided to sell his high school memorabilia without his consent in order to purchase an additional home, sources said. Bryant offered to buy a house for his parents, but they wanted a larger one.



In its court filings, Goldin Auctions says Pamela Bryant told the auction house that she asked her son five years ago what he wanted to do with the items that were in her home.

“Kobe Bryant indicated to Pamela Bryant that the items belonged to her and that he had no interest in them,” the auction house’s attorneys wrote. So she put them in a $1,500-per-month New Jersey storage unit.

The challenge came Tuesday when Goldin Auctions sent a news release announcing the auction. By day’s end, Kobe Bryant’s lawyer had sent a cease-and-desist letter telling the auction house to call off the sale and return the items to him.

Kenneth Goldin, owner of the auction house, says he can’t cancel the auction because he’s already advanced $450,000 to Bryant’s mother and put money into advertising the auction.

Kobe Bryant’s lawyer Mark Campbell said in a statement, “Mr. Bryant’s personal property has ended up in the possession of someone who does not lawfully own it. We look forward to resolving this legal matter through the legal system.”

Bryant has had a sometimes icy relationship with his mother and father, Joe “Jellybean” Bryant, a former pro basketball player who is now coaching in Thailand.

Information from’s Darren Rovell,’s Dave McMenamin and The Associated Press was used in this report.



!!!!!!!!!FIGHT * FIGHT * FIGHT!!!!!!


ImageHello Folks,

I wanna discuss something that is long over due. We spend so much time feeling sorry for ourselves.  I mean really accepting the victim’s role. Allowing whatever wrong done to us to really pull us down.  I know about this much to well.  I have recently experienced something that has rocked my faith in GOD and also my trust in mankind.  I have been crying, screaming, and feeling sorry for myself. 


I have decided to get up an live everyday..I mean live..I do not need permission from anyone.  I really don’t care what anyone else says or how they see me.. Why don’t I? Well, none of these judgmental people have a heaven or hell to place my soul in for eternity.  That being said..




I know they were talking about you at church..pretending to care but just trying to get more information. They just wanted to have something to gossip about. I know they were spreading your misfortune at work-acting like they care that your spouse was unfaithful..I know they talk about the way you dress or the way you wear your hair. I know they lied to get you to give money and they have never paid you back.  Believe me as I type this, I hear it all..So your past is spotty, you have been in prison one will hire you..Your father is not, or was not there for you..O yes, they were talking about the money that you don’t have..laughing about you behind your back..

No one will hire you..start your own business..your father isn’t a great mom or dad when given the chance..they are talking about you..their life is a mess-that’s why they have time to keep up with your life..the people at the church seem fake..they are..the church is made for misfits..they just don’t know -that you know -that they are misfits..they tricked you into giving them money..God said the we would be the lender and not the borrower..REJOICE!!!

You feel like the victim (hmmm)-that’s what he(Satan) wants you feel like ..the victim. He wants you to feel powerless over your life. Over the choices you make or have made.

He is A LIAR!!

You have complete control. Those who are talking about you..look at them NOW and laugh at them. hmm-I don’t hear you laughing..still not laughing..Do I need to start telling jokes.. Did you not read the book..Basic Instructions Before Leaving Earth!!!

 Take the energy that they are using to try to stop you and turn it around and use it to propel yourself into-what-


Will it be easy? Of course not..Anything worth having is worth fighting for!! 

My word to you


in the words of the Street Fighters…

Coyfee OUT!!



LETTING GO !!!?!!?!!!?!!!


!!!!LETTING GO!!!!!

Hello Guys,

I want to talk about a real place in time.. what is it? Moving on.. Letting go.. Arriving.  We will start with moving on.  I was reminded that no matter what a person does to you can not move on until a decision is made to do so.

I have made this decision, I am moving on. I will not focus on the past but embrace my future.  Though sometimes my future looks bleak..I am remind that God’s word says that he has a plan for success not failure planned for me and for you..

I will allow the memories, which are not all bad, will become just a memory.  My future can changed be by me based on my choices and what I believe. I have decided to change the focus and let go!!!

Ways to move on

  1. Exhale
  2. Breathe deep
  3. Forgive him/her/them
  4. Accept the fact that God will take Vengeance on whomever hurt you
  5. Walk it Out!!

So let’s start with Letting GO

Coyfee out..

Thanks to all who read my blog daily…Thank you







Hello Folks,

I decided that since I had to miss my workout today that I would write a bit.  I was wondering what we could discuss. Hmmm…I was thinking about how we handle it when something we were planning doesn’t happen the way we planned. Examples of this are listed below:


This is one of the most difficult things that we plan and if it does not happen as we have planned.. it is devastating.  Many women who experience this type of loss never forget.  The fear of loosing another baby is unbearable.  Let us pray for those of us who have had to live with this type of loss.  Father, thank you healing our broken hearts and for adding life to our lives again.  Thank you Lord that though there was mourning you will turn it into dancing.. Amen..


When one dies, we have been praying and praying and praying. They get better and then the worst thing ever happens. What? They die.  They leave us after we have prayed and just know that they will not.  I can not say much on this topic because as a child, my grannie died.  I was 10 years old and yes..I prayed and was sure that she would live even though she told me she would not.  She was ready to meet the Lord.  I wanted her to stay with me and well, she left.  She died and I was crushed.  My grannie who I called ‘Gran Mo’ was gone to be with the Lord.  She taught me how to bake biscuits and how to cook cakes.  How to shell peas and snap beans. She was my hero and my champion..and she was sick and did not want to live any longer. She left and I was left in the world without her..Oh my God, the memory of it all …it seems like yesterday.  I will stop discussing this topic now….



You have been dating for awhile, and everyone says you two look great together.  You start to believe it..then he pops the question.  You start planning the wedding and buying stuff.  You announce it to your friends and then the worst thing happens..he breaks the engagements off. Leaves you..or does something that you can’t forgive..or well you think you can’t.  

We will continue with other things that cause us to think that God is wrong or that he must made a mistake..However, please remember that no matter how painful the loss is..we can heal and rise again..

Coyfee signing off for now..





Hello Folks,

I thought it would be fun to track my weight loss success on line.  So I have decided to keep an active log of activities.  Success and failures on line just for you all.  I think this is a good motivational tool.  So here is where I am at this moment. Sometimes people can be really mean ..the above clip is your motivation..mine motivation is I will live a long happy healthy wealthy life..while running up a flight of first goal..

Right Now

I work out 45 minutes every M, T, W, and Fri, and Sun.  I am using a fat burners and also a protein shakes as a supplement.

I have lost 11 lbs at this point. I started the last week in February 2012.

Weight: 248 lbs

Where I begin

I was having great difficulty walking up a modest amount of stairs and I notice that weight was seeming to just pile up on me.  I had a very weak appetite and no energy. I was unable to wear my beloved pumps (high heeled shoes)

Weight at beginning was 259 lbs

I am 5’0″ tall… not good odds.  I am a bit curvy but much to heavy for my frame.

Reason for Change

I love God but with God comes wisdom.  The relationship that I am in has been a very emotional relationship. My guy often confesses his love for me just the way I am.  

So if you thought he was the reason for the change..hmmm—He is not.  The wisdom that God has given me has caused me to see that why I am anointed and see and understands the mysteries of the Gospel..I am extremely over weight.

I have decided to make a change.  So I did some research and joined a gym.  I asked a lot of questions and go faithfully almost every day.  My guy came with me once but has not come back.   That will not deter me.  I will work out until it becomes a good habit in my life. I have a trainer so that I can maximize the weight loss.  I have nutritional assistance also and this will make this life change a bit easier.

I do not desire to become one that competes in this arena but I do desire to become healthy.  A testimony for what diligence will do!

Before Picture

tammie before shot

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MARK 3.24

24 For if civil war breaks out in a kingdom, nothing can make that kingdom last; 25 and if a family splits into parties, that family cannot continue26 So if Satan has risen in arms and has made war upon himself, stand he cannot, but meets his end. 27 Nay, no one can go into a strong man’s house and carry off his property, unless he first binds the strong man, and then he will plunder his house.

28 In solemn truth I tell you that all their sins may be pardoned to the sons of men, and all their blasphemies, however they may have blasphemed; 29 but whoever blasphemes against the Holy Spirit, he remains for ever unabsolved: he is guilty of a sin of the Ages.” 30 This was because they said, “He is possessed by a foul spirit.”

Hey guys, 

We are working on building a family that represents God‘s grace and love. What we have found is that the enemy(spirit of division) is working constantly to keep our family divided and arguing at each other.

I began praying since the wisdom of God began to tug on me about a house divided. I understand that there are demons being released to challenge our dedication to God’s plan for our lives. My husband to be(lol) is anointing to preach the Gospel. Shhhsh! Don’t tell anyone he is still being groomed and often is unsure what God is doing. It is an exacting thing to watch. He is a rough around the edges but God has a tool that sharpens iron. ME!! I know guys..often time God will give me a message to share with him. 

We share the word of God with each other.. It’s not always an easy task but we are learning to share and respect the Spirit of God. I have learned to pray about whatever God is saying and allow God to deal with him. This keeps the arguments to a medium.

We have decided to focus on God and pray often for revelation, grace, and mercy when dealing with each other directly. We are also praying for an couple that we can be accountable with.  We are praying for a couple that has all the good stuff, second or more marriage, step children, and even adult children. Pray with us.. We declare that we will be ministers used by God for His sakes!!

So I am sharing this to show how the spirit of divination, works in our family. Have you noticed this spirit working in your family? If so, how have you been addressing this spirit? Here is another scripture reference that will show how division also affects the church. 

Jude 1:19

It is these who are [agitators] setting up distinctions and causing divisions—merely sensual [creatures, carnal, worldly-minded people], devoid of the [Holy] Spirit and destitute of any higher spiritual life.

Jude 1:18-20 

Tune in later for the steps of overcoming ‘Division’

Coyfee out!!





I wonder did anyone else know when and how black history began.  I was searching for the next person to feature in my Black History Month peice and discover the below piece.  I was shocked because in all of my many years of education and also educating other..we were never taught about Dr. Woodson.   I discovered the origin of the Black History  by accident.  Is that sad? Our country really needs to focus on teaching the young about the many attributes of the Black American. Someone should do something about. Yes, I will.

Let’s start here…

Read below and discover the origin of BLACK HISTORY.


by Elissa Haney
Dr. Carter G. Woodson

Americans have recognized black history annually since 1926, first as “Negro History Week” and later as “Black History Month.” What you might not know is that black history had barely begun to be studied-or even documented-when the tradition originated. Although blacks have been in America at least as far back as colonial times, it was not until the 20th century that they gained a respectable presence in the history books.

Blacks Absent from History Books

We owe the celebration of Black History Month, and more importantly, the study of black history, to Dr. Carter G. Woodson. Born to parents who were former slaves, he spent his childhood working in the Kentucky coal mines and enrolled in high school at age twenty. He graduated within two years and later went on to earn a Ph.D. from Harvard. The scholar was disturbed to find in his studies that history books largely ignored the black American population-and when blacks did figure into the picture, it was generally in ways that reflected the inferior social position they were assigned at the time.

Established Journal of Negro History

Woodson, always one to act on his ambitions, decided to take on the challenge of writing black Americans into the nation’s history. He established the Association for the Study of Negro Life and History (now called the Association for the Study of Afro-American Life and History) in 1915, and a year later founded the widely respected Journal of Negro History. In 1926, he launched Negro History Week as an initiative to bring national attention to the contributions of black people throughout American history.

Woodson chose the second week of February for Negro History Week because it marks the birthdays of two men who greatly influenced the black American population, Frederick Douglass and Abraham Lincoln. However, February has much more than Douglass and Lincoln to show for its significance in black American history. For example:






Today we stopped by this hotel named Hotel Duval…it is absolute perfect for our celebration.  How much? We don’t know but we have agreed to pray. Ephesians 3.20 is our favorite. Read below and you will see why.. We both want to have a very nice venue for the celebration. So  if you decide to pray for us.. Pray Ephesians 3.20…

Ephesians 3:20-21

Amplified Bible (AMP)

20 Now to Him Who, by (in consequence of) the [action of His] power that is at work within us, is able to [carry out His purpose and] do super abundantly, far over and above all that we [dare] ask or think [infinitely beyond our highest prayers, desires, thoughts, hopes, or dreams]21 To Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations forever and ever. Amen (so be it).


I am such a people person, I would love for you all to be there but he is the exact opposite. So now we began the guess list. This is the hard part but it must be done.  


Since I am a very mature bride(lol) I have a lot of married friends. How do I choose. I have chosen my oldest and dearest friend to be my Matron of Honor.  I will be untraditional with two Maids of Honor and a host of bride maids, a flower girl, and ring bearer. My three sons will give me away.  Really..LOL Yep..

Colors: Purple and Black and ?

For those who have been reading alone, you know that he has the chocolate colored skinned that I love. Tall with a broad chest..hmmm  lol. Saying all that, I wanted to dress him in a white suite w/purple accents.  Noooo! He refused and we now have him wearing a black Tux with purple vest or cumber bum.  Okay, I wanted to wear a purple gown..I know people..I know.. It was just apart of my fantasy He has reminded gently that we both have dreams. He simply said, baby I fantasized in my bride being in a white dress. I pushed back a bit but eventually realized that this is the perfect time to walk in compromise. So I did.. 


Searching for the perfect gown for my full curvy figure. No, the answer to your question-will go on a diet before the wedding. No again I answer.  I will not be starving myself to fit into the gown. The GOWN will be designed to fit me.  My hubby to b like meat on his rib so I am just fine. LOL!!

Well that’s about I have in the way of updates..

Tune in for more Black History Month!!

Coyfee Out!!!





Hello Guys and Gals!

This is Black History Month in America. i decided to kick off the Black History Dedication with Zora Hurston. She is my favorite black female author.  Favorite guys! When a friend introduced me to her work I was just amazed. I decided to share a bit of her work with you.  First we will examine her the time line of her life.  Read below..Such an amazing woman died in such a disgraceful way.


Jan 7, 1891-Zora Neale Hurston Born
Zora Neale Hurston is born in Notasulga, Alabama. She is the fifth of eight children born to John and Lucy Potts Hurston.
1892-Move to Eatonville
The Hurston family moves to Eatonville, an incorporated, self-governed, all-black town north of Orlando, Florida. Incorporated in 1887, it is the oldest such town in the United States.
1904-Mother Dies
Hurston’s mother Lucy Potts Hurston dies. Soon after, her father marries Mattie Moge, a young woman only six years older than Zora. Hurston and her new stepmother bitterly dislike each other.
1917-Twentysomething High-Schooler
After leaving home and school and working a number of odd jobs to support herself, Hurston moves to Baltimore, Maryland. In order to qualify for a free high school education, 26-year-old Hurston lies about her age, claiming her birth year as 1901. She maintains the falsehood until her death.
Jun 1918-High School Graduation
Hurston completes her high school graduation requirements at Morgan Academy in Baltimore. After graduation, she works as a waitress and a manicurist to earn money.
1919-Hurston at Howard University
Hurston enrolls at Howard University in Washington, D.C.
Hurston receives her associate degree from Howard.
1921Hurston Publishes First Story
“John Redding Goes to Sea,” Zora Neale Hurston’s first short story, is published in the Howard literary magazine Stylus.
Dec 1924-“Drenched in Light”
Hurston’s short story “Drenched in Light” is published in the journal Opportunity.
1925-Transfer to Barnard College 
Hurston submits the short story “Spunk” and the play Color Struck to a literary contest sponsored byOpportunity and wins second place for both. In the same year, she receives a scholarship to Barnard College and transfers, studying anthropology with the scholar Franz Boas.
1926-Hurston Visits Harlem
Hurston travels to Harlem to conduct field research for Boas on black life. She meets several other young black artists, including Langston Hughes. Several of Hurston’s short stories are published during this time. She and Hughes also launch the short-lived but influential black literary journalFire!!
1927-Hurston Marries Herbert Sheen
Hurston travels to Florida to research black communities there. On 19 May, Hurston marries Herbert Sheen, a fellow Howard student.
May 1928-“How It Feels To Be Colored Me”
Her essay “How It Feels To Be Colored Me” appears in The World Tomorrow. By this time, Hurston’s marriage to Sheen is beginning to disintegrate.
1930-Hurston-Hughes Estrangement
She and Langston Hughes work on a play entitled Mule Bone. They disagree over authorship of the play and by 1931, their friendship ends. Hurston deeply regrets the split with Hughes.
Jul 7, 1931Divorce
Hurston’s divorce from Herbert Sheen becomes final.
Jan 10, 1932-The Great Day
The Great Day, a musical written and choreographed by Hurston, premieres on Broadway.
May 1934-Hurston’s First Novel
Hurston’s first novel, Jonah’s Gourd Vine, is published. Her essays and short stories appear frequently in literary journals. She begins to study for a doctorate (never completed) at Columbia University with the help of a Rosenwald Fellowship.
1935-Mules and Men
Hurston publishes a collection of black folklore entitled Mules and Men.
1936-Obeah Research in Jamaica
Hurston is awarded a Guggenheim fellowship to study obeah, the practice of sorcery in the West Indies. From April to September she conducts research in Jamaica.
1937-Their Eyes Were Watching God
Her Guggenheim fellowship extended, Hurston continues her research in Haiti. While there, she writes Their Eyes Were Watching God in seven weeks. She returns to the United States shortly before the 18 September publication of the novel.
1938-Tell My Horse
Hurston writes and publishes Tell My Horse, an account of West Indian obeah practices based on her research.
1939-Federal Writers’ Project
Hurston is hired by the Federal Writers’ Project to record African-American culture in Florida. Later in the year she accepts a position as a drama instructor at North Carolina College for Negroes. Her novel Moses, Man of the Mountain is published. She marries her lover, Albert Price III.
1942-Dust Tracks on a Road
Her memoir Dust Tracks on a Road is published to critical praise. It receives the Anisfield-Wolf Book Award for its take on race relations.
1943-Second Divorce
After a brief and tumultuous marriage, Hurston and Price’s divorce is finalized.
1947-Seraph on the Swanee
Hurston moves to Honduras to research the black experience in Central America. She writes the novel Seraph on the Swanee, which is published the following year.
1950Domestic Work
A financially strapped Hurston takes a job as a maid in Florida. She continues to publish well-regarded essays in the Saturday Evening Post and other publications.
1952-Hurston as Reporter
The Pittsburgh Courier hires Hurston to cover the sensational case of Ruby McCollum, a black woman who shot and killed her white lover, whom she accused of forcing her to have sex.
1957-Newspaper Columnist
Hurston begins a two-year stint as a columnist for the Fort Pierce Chronicle. During this time she also works as a substitute teacher at a local school.
Hurston suffers a stroke and is forced to move into the St. Lucie County Welfare Home.
Jan 28, 1960-Death of Zora Neale Hurston

Zora Neale Hurston dies of hypertensive heart disease at the St. Lucie County Welfare Home. Penniless and alone at the time of her death, her neighbors take up a collection to pay for her funeral. She is buried in an unmarked grave.

Aug 1973-Rediscovery by Alice Walker

Intrigued by Hurston’s life story, the writer Alice Walker locates the site of her grave and purchases a headstone for it. The inscription reads “Zora Neale Hurston: A Genius of the South.”


Such a great woman who was not afraid to give up all for what she believed in..


Enjoy our Black History Month Dedication…

Coyfee out…